Why I don’t believe in (our) schools

“I’m sorry to inform you that Dixi will not be going any higher than level 3, we just think she will fit in better on that level”. A phrase I remember hearing my teacher say to my mother very vividly when I was 13 years old. We had just completed our final exams before being…

Speechless

You make me speechless. To the point where even my mind Does not know what to think. I try to fight The thoughts running through my head And stop my heart from racing. But with every word, you touch me so deep I can’t deny. These are feelings, I can’t deny. That’s why I wish…

The one

And then it hit me. At a time when I was at my lowest When there was no one I could turn to A time of desperation  Tears running down my face Thoughts rushing through my mind Fear taking over , I see darkness even though the sky is blue. Crying for help but not…

#1

He knows me better than I know myself. I look in the mirror and see nothing. He looked at me and saw everything.  What is a smile if not to the one you love? What is life if not shared? What is peace without happiness?  What is love without him? -Dixi 

The Dream

When did I Stop to dream? When did it become so hard to answer What do you want to be when you grow up? A singer and actress who can dance and is smart too was my answer before. After all, nothing was impossible. So when did I stop believing in my dreams? Was it…

Milestones

While my private life (read love life) is non existent and will probably stay that way, I did realise today that I have reached quite a few milestones over the past few months.  Managed to stay under 299 kilo’s in spite of the holidays. Actually went without chocolate for 3 days in.a.row.  Consciously deposited two…

A Love lost 

And there it was. Right in front of me. Love. Love is his name. Near to perfect in all his ways. And for a short while, Love was mine and I was his.  So close but yet so far away. Love showed me what happiness feels like even on a cloudy day. And so I…

Once upon A Butterfly 

Once upon a butterfly, a butterfly with no wings. She doesn’t look like a butterfly yet, while admiring her surroundings of beautiful things. Once upon a butterfly, a butterfly with no wings. When will she realise, her true nature lies within?  Oh butterly, once you were small dreaming of bigger things. But now you can…

This Love

There is this kind of Love that’s universal, and feels almost supernatural . The kind of Love that understands your pain, yet still causes you to smile again. -Dixi

Letting go

It it because I did not want to disappoint you, that I never opened up to you before. And now that I have, with so many emotions taking over me leaving me to feel overwhelmed and out of control. I have to let go. It is better now, when no real harm has been done,…

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Gentle, sweet thoughts I have about you. Wishes and Desires I have for you. Wishing to be closer, to know you more and more. Desiring to touch you, to tame my burning passion for you. You have no idea, you haven’t got a clue, how much of my day I spend thinking of you. Is…

Life

Ever made a decision, convinced you had completely thought through? You weighed the Pro’s against the con’s and you worked out every possible scenario. Every angle has been covered. Or so you thought. Then life has a funny way of turning things upside down and inside out to the point where you don’t even remember…